Good Mornings

"In my age, as in my youth, night brings me many a deep remorse. I realize that from the cradle up I have been like the rest of the race -- never quite sane in the night."

-- Mark Twain's Autobiography

Although I wouldn't quite say "a deep remorse," I find a lot of truth in Twain's quote. There's something about the darkness of night, lying awake in bed, when thoughts seem to cascade upon each other into an ocean of worry. 

To quote someone else that at least a few of you will recognize:

"Sometimes I lie awake at night and wonder, where my life will lead, waiting to pass under, sleep's dark and silent gate."

Maybe it's that at night, my mind is relatively quiet, and so, free from the literal and figurative noise of a busy day, it turns to the more pressing worries that have been kept at bay. Maybe it's that my mind is just tired and harder to control. Or maybe it's just plain scarier when it's dark. 

Either way, when the light of morning comes, the problems seem to recede like low tide, becoming more manageable and making me wonder why I was worrying about them in the first place.

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It's really great being back at Dana-Farber, but it was a bit odd to see Dr. LaCasce (my oncologist) walk into the room at a meeting I was in. 

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